May 1, 2025

The Reading Life (Continued)


Part II

Years ago, I wrote for and subscribed to a journal of transpersonal psychology that had a section called "What  Our Editors Are Reading." I’m going to borrow a leaf from that journal to tell you what your blogger has been reading of late. So this blog will just be about what I am currently or recently have been reading. Let’s start with the fiction.


This novel tells the story of a light-skinned Black woman whose mother urges her to pass as white so as to reap the advantages of what we today call "white privilege." This was a hard choice for her since her father strongly disagreed with the mother’s wishes, especially since he himself was a vigorous crusader for the rights of Black people. Still, our heroine, named Belle, follows her mother’s advice.

Belle had grown up with a love of fine art and beautiful things. The story is set in the early part of the 20th century in New York. And by a series of remarkable circumstances, she becomes the personal librarian of the famous financier and art collector, J. P. Morgan. In time she becomes indispensable to him in his quest to obtain many treasures for his collection. Over the years, because Belle is attractive, articulate and very witty, she begins to consort and dine with the aristocrats of the city like the Vanderbilts. Morgan, who is married, but has many mistresses, is drawn to our heroine – there is an erotic charge between them – but they never become lovers. Morgan dies without ever learning Belle’s secret.

All this actually happened. It is a matter of history. Belle essentially created the J. P. Morgan Museum as it exists today, and recently there was an exhibition all about her.


This dystopian novel is set in southern California at a fictional college called Santa Teresa, a part of the University of California system, where our heroine named Sarah, who is the narrator of this story, teaches Buddhism. 
 
As the novel opens, we learn that she is fast friends with a fellow Ph.D. candidate named Nathan. They are not lovers, however, because Nathan is celibate for reasons that are unclear. He is an enigmatic man, and although he comes from a wealthy family, he lives a life of poverty, like a monk. What they do together are drugs – cocaine, Ecstasy, Ketamine, acid, you name it.

One day, Sarah goes over to Nathan’s house for one of their rendezvous, but he doesn’t answer the door. When Sarah breaks in, she finds out the reason. Nathan is dead, a needle his left arm (though we learn Nathan is left-handed). Nathan has been murdered. Sarah needs to find out why and who did it.

The story is more than a whodunit, however. The backdrop is the fires that are always burning in California where Sarah feels alienated – she’s from the woods of main, drives a trunk with a gun rack, and is a bad ass.  She has also been raped, knows who did it (he’s still a student at the school), but has never received justice for the crime. There’s a lot about rape and its victims in this novel, and much of it is difficult to read, but gripping.

I won’t divulge more of the story in case you read it. I will just say that this is Christine Murphy’s debut novel, and she is someone to keep your eye on.


This novel has actually been around for a while, and has many thousands of reviews on Amazon, most of them very laudatory, so I decided it might be worth reading.  As with Notes on Surviving the Fire, this dark novel begins with a mystery: A man’s wife has disappeared. She was there last night in their home in Missouri, but in the morning, her husband, Nick, can’t find her anywhere. The whole story revolves around Nick’s search for his wife, Amy. He is desperate to find her.

But after some days of fruitless search, we find ourselves reading excerpts from Amy’s diary, which describe episodes in her marriage to Nick. So, apparently, Amy is alive after all, though still missing. During the course of the novel, from reading Amy’s diary, we learn about how her marriage to Nick when she is at first wildly in love with him gradually curdles, especially after she learns he has been carrying out an illicit affair with a young woman. And to add salt to Amy’s wound, she had already lent him all her money so that Nick could open a bar in town. 

At the beginning of the novel, all our sympathy is with Nick, but over the course of it, we can see why Amy has left the scum she had been married to.  

I won’t say more except this – nothing is what it seems. This riveting book has more twists than a pretzel. It is a helluva good read. I can see why’s been so popular.


A thirty-five-year-old woman named Annie, thirty-seven weeks pregnant, is at an IKEA in Portland, looking to buy a new crib for her expectant baby when, suddenly, out of nowhere, she is knocked to the floor after experiencing a tremendous jolt that shakes the whole building. She is stunned and confused, but is not seriously hurt. She is just trying to gather her wits when a second, more violent shaking occurs. All the lights go out, and screaming is heard throughout the building as people struggle and grope to find their way out away from falling plaster and the bodies of the wounded and the dead.

Obviously, there has been a massive earthquake.

Do you know about the Cascadia subduction zone? It’s an area encompassing northern California, Oregon and parts of Washington. An earthquake there would have a value in excess of 9 on the Richter scale. The 1906 earthquake in San Francisco destroyed the city. An earthquake here would devastate the entire Northwest coast. The last one occurred around 1700. Nobody knows what would happen when the next one will hit this region. But that’s what Annie is about to find out. It happened to occur while she was shopping for a new crib at IKEA.

With the help of the woman who had been waiting on her at the time the earthquake struck, Annie is able to get out. She is injured, but she can walk. But where can she go and how can she get there? She doesn’t have her purse, her phone or her car keys. She has no way to reach her husband, Dom. Outside, she finds an apocalyptic scene, hell on earth, everything destroyed.

She has lost touch with the woman who saved her. She is alone. She begins walking. She wants to try to reach the café where her husband works. 

During the course of the book, we learn a lot about Annie, her husband, and their marriage. But all the time she is walking, walking, walking from the afternoon until night comes when the only lights are from cell phones flashing like lonely beacons to nowhere.

The book is often funny – laugh out loud funny, uproarious – when it isn’t terrifying and heart-wrenching. And what about the baby? I won’t tell you how it ends or if it does. Read it. It may make you quake.

I still read a lot of fiction, but only at night before retiring. I try to keep up on current trends and the latest styles and writers who are blazing new trails in fiction, such as the Irish writer, Sally Rooney. Or the auto-fiction of writers like Rachel Cusk and Sigrid Nunez. I will never run out of books to read until I run out of time.

Non-Fiction


I love reading about explorers and naturalists and, again, I can only envy the lives and adventures they have that I could never hope to emulate or experience for myself. My very favorite naturalist is Alfred Russel Wallace (yes, just one “l” Russel), the co-discover of the theory of evolution, but the one I most admire is the incomparable Alexander von Humboldt who was once the most famous scientist in the world. You can read about the tremendous life he led (he died at 90), and the discoveries he made on his travels that changed our view of nature in Andrea Wulf’s wonderful biography, The Invention of Nature. (By the way of nothing relevant, I adore Andrea Wulf and would propose marriage to her, if I were ever given the chance. She, like her books, is a radiant gem.)

But now I have a new hero – Neil Shubin, the author of the book I am currently reading. He’s a distinguished  professor at the University of Chicago who has spent most of his life exploring the polar regions of the earth, the Arctic and, especially, Antarctica. Not only does he recount of his own explorations and discoveries, but he also gives vivid accounts of previous explorers who lived and sometimes died in the 19th and early 20th century when they made epic journeys to reach to poles. And, by the way, did you know that the south pole sits atop a volcano over 9,000 feet high? Imagine what it took to reach it! A man from Norway, Roald Amundsen, was the first to do so in 1912, breaking the heart of the English explorer, Robert Scott, who arrived at the pole a month  afterward, only to find a Norwegian flag fluttering in the frigid air. What’s worse, Scott and all the members his team perished while making their descent down the mountain.

There is so much of interest in this book about glaciers and the forms of life, ancient (when the south pole was warm) and current that manage to survive there. But there is no room to mention these fascinating findings, especially about the history of lce and its importance in the modern world. You’ll just have to read the book, which I’m now eager to finish.

Just a tidbit here. Did you know that deep under the Antarctic continent there are lakes? And in those lakes there are microbes that have never seen the sun. Some of them can turn off their metabolism for five years and hibernate for all that time. I sometimes wish I could do the same….


I could barely bring myself to read this book. You can imagine how I feel about what’s happened to Gaza and the people who have lived and died there over the last year and a half during Israel’s obscene assault on that forsaken land. But this is only the latest tragedy to strike down the Palestinians who have been trapped there in their open-air prison by a cruel Israeli embargo for many years now. It is unspeakable. Unbearable, even to read about. But we’ve all seen the photos and videos on our screens and TVs. Nothing more needs to be said.

Still, I decided to read this book because I admire the author, some of whose books, both fiction and non-fiction, especially on Buddhism, I had already read.

Still, it was tough going. It’s really a book about the extent to which the modern Western world, especially in the U.S., has had a long history of white supremacy and race-based nationalism. And the extent to which, especially under the administration of Joe Biden and now Donald Trump, we have been complicit with Israel in providing the ordnance, especially our cluster bombs, that the Israeli depend on to commit their acts of savagery against the innocent, mostly women and children. Gaza will never recover.   

Mishra is an intellectual and a gifted writer, but one thing irked me about this book that I hadn’t expected. Some writers wear their learning and erudition lightly. Not Mishra. He is forever quoting other authors, almost as if he wants to show off how widely read he is. 

Still, it’s worth a read if you have the stomach and head for it.


This is a book about one of those mathematical geniuses that I am always in awe of. He’s Roger Penrose, someone I’ve read about for years, so I was psyched to read an entire well researched biography of this man I had long admired. But I was in for a surprise – and a disappointment – when I read it, as I pointed out in a brief review I wrote of the book on Amazon after I had finished it. This is what I wrote:

"The Impossible Man" is a superlative biography of a world-famous mathematical physicist and cosmologist, Roger Penrose, the recipient of the Nobel Prize in 2020 when he was 89.  Widely recognized as a genius, the story of his life, quite apart from recounting his many original contributions to science, is a painfully moving and ultimately very sad, even tragic account of a tormented and deeply troubled man.

The author, Patchen Barss, a science journalist who writes with the hands of a novelist, spent several years in conversation with Penrose and was given access to many of Penrose’s letters, particularly to a succession of women whom Penrose courted as his muse. He needed intimate contact with women with whom he could share his ideas, but none of these relationships could survive his desperate, insatiable need for their love, support and understanding. He burned through them all, and wound up alone in his early nineties, effectively blind, estranged from his family, including his four children, still tinkering with his iconoclastic theories, which appear to indicate that he lost his way down the rabbit hole of his obsessions, few colleagues thought made any sense.

This is a beautifully written book, which honors a great man, but which leaves the reader to ponder the personal cost of pursuing the call of genius, no matter what the consequences. It is a cautionary tale no reader will soon forget.

I recommended the book to a couple of my friends who knew about Penrose and were interested to know what I thought about the book. To one of them, I wrote the following:

The book about Penrose is really worth your time, if you’re interested. There is so much in there about Penrose that is fascinating. For example, from an early age, he was able to think in four dimensions. He was an intensely visual person and thought in terms of shapes, not equations. Like Descartes, Hobbes and Spinoza, he was in love with geometry, which was fundamental to his thought. The book also discusses his rivalry with and envy of Hawking, his friendship with Escher and Escher’s influence on his work, and so many more facets of Penrose’s extraordinary life and achievements in science before he ran off the rails.

I know some of his students didn’t think much of this book, but many of his students — and some of his colleagues — were in awe of him and adulated him. But they only knew the public man. They were not privy to his personal life and to his deep anguish about his relationships with women. But Barss is a sedulous researcher and a gifted writer. He had extensive contact with Penrose over about four years and read all of his letters and correspondence from others. He made himself an expert on Penrose. I think if you read the book, you’d be impressed by it and convinced of the portrait he gives of Penrose.

One of things I found especially moving and so deeply poignant about Penrose is the portrait Barss paints of him in the prologue to his book when Penrose is nearly blind. This is a short excerpt from that prologue:

He willfully ignored medical issues – high blood pressure, macular degeneration, mobility problems, subtle but perceptible cognitive decline – that created challenges for his work and personal life.

He could concentrate when interrupted, but small disruptions could throw him off for hours as he struggled to recover his train of thought. He had increasing difficulty recalling names and words and often grew frustrated with his inconsistent memory….

His eyes had also betrayed him, blurring shapes and obscuring words on the page. He’d had a customized magnifier embedded in the right lens of his thick glasses, and by closing one eye and holding up a paper up to his nose, he could still read. For e-mail and digital publications, he bought the largest computer screen he could find and blew the text up to marque-sized letters. 

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I am about the same age as was Penrose at this time, approaching 90 now. I found this passage extremely hard to read because I’m beginning to have the same kind of visual and cognitive difficulties, though mine are mild compared to his. But my daughter Kathryn is always trying to find devices to help me see better, particularly on my computer, where I often have to increase the font in order to read text on my screen. And just now I am waiting to receive a huge monitor that should increase the size of everything.

I can still read my books, but I have to use a patch over my right eye to do so. I was never a fast reader, but now I read at a glacial pace, and it takes me forever to finish a book!

Fortunately, I can still concentrate, not lose my train of thought, and comprehend well, even though not so well as when I was younger. But increasingly often, I can’t remember how to spell certain words or find the words I want to express myself or remember the names of certain actors, etc. 

So, I have a lot of compassion for Penrose, God bless him. He’s still alive at 93. I can only wonder how he’s doing now.

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Time to start wrapping up this blog. I have just a couple of things to add before doing so.

One is about the books I will never read or finish. There are plenty of them. I remember I stopped reading Moby-Dick on page 338. I never got much farther in Dante’s Divine Comedy than the beginning of Purgatory.

I’ve read only a few of Shakespeare’s plays, always meaning to read more, but never have and never will. I did read The Odyssey and The Iliad, at least. I have a big book of the complete essays of Montaigne, but have only read about fifteen or twenty of them. I read Anna Karenina, but never tackled War and Peace. Or McMurtry’s Lonesome Dove. And most shocking of all, although I’ve read the four gospels, I’ve never read the Bible, aside from dipping into it to read various sections, such as The Book of Job. A scandal, really. What can I say?   

Finally, you ask, what am I reading now? You’ll hate this. Woody Allen’s latest collection of whimsical and really funny Jewish short stories

Yes, I know. Woody has porous boundaries and is always falling for younger women, both in films and in life, it seems. His reputation has certainly been tarnished in recent years, but I have no interest in litigating his character. Many highly creative artists would not win any awards for their character. That’s not the issue here. Let’s not get distracted. Getting back to what I had started to write about his latest book….

The New Yorker writer, Daphne Merkin, who wrote the foreword, says that Woody is as witty and wildly imaginative as ever, and I agree. I may no longer identify as being Jewish, but I have never lost my love for Jewish humor, and Woody is a master of that.

He's the same age as I am - 89. We were born twelve days apart in 1935, but he got there first. In his film, Radio Days, he obviously grew up listening to same pop songs that I did. I identify with the guy. If you ever see his film, Deconstructing Harry, you will understand why. It's a kind of autobiographical film, but it's the story of my life, too. Still, this is a blog about what I’ve been reading, not my life as a film critic! Fortunately, I’m not gonna write a book about my life and crimes, so you won’t have to read that one. Anyway, I’m now written out, so I’m ready to put this blog and myself to bed. Good night, Irene.

April 27, 2025

The Reading Life and a Life of Reading


The greatest gift is a passion for reading.
 
Outside of a dog, a book is man’s best friend.  Inside of a dog, it’s too dark to read.

Part I

As a child, I was not a precocious early reader. In fact, I was not precocious in any way. I was just an average kid, except for my vision, which was always poor. Mostly, I was interested in baseball, girls and pop music. I had always loved to sing, having a good voice, but as for reading, meh.  

Although my house when I was growing up wasn’t entirely barren of books like the home of the Texas writer and book collector extraordinaire, Larry McMurtry, I don’t remember there being any books in my house, though there must have been some. Nor do I ever remember anyone in my family reading bedtime stories to me. I lived with my mother, her sister and her husband. My father had gone off to war when I was about seven years old. No one in my family had been to college. I did not come from a family of readers, much less intellectuals.

Except for my Uncle Bill, my mother’s older brother.

As I was to learn, Bill had had a somewhat wild youth growing up during the Depression. He rode the rails, hung out with tramps and hobos, knew some criminals and denizens of the demimonde, and had married a hooker named Sonny whom I was later to meet. (She soon divorced Bill after her former lover was discharged from prison.)

Bill had never got beyond the 8th grade in school, but he was one of those self-educated, bibliophile Jews, and somehow found time to read a great deal. I got to know him around the ages of seven and eight when he was working as a gardener at Mills College in Oakland, not far from where my family lived.  He lived in a little hut on campus where I would visit him.  It was crammed with books.

Bill was my first teacher. He talked about the books he had read – on politics, religion and especially science – and gave me some of them to read so we could later discuss them. Bill educated me and, looking back on my time with him now, I am aware that it was he who introduced me to the world of books.

But before my time with Bill, I did read a little. I remember reading books on baseball by a writer named, as I recall, John R. Tunis, and on astronomy, which fascinated me after my family took me to Chabot Observatory where I was able to hold a fragment on a meteor. There’s another book I vividly remember reading around the age of eight, which now belonged to my mother.  It was a book about the lives of composers.  I remember lying across my bed, engrossed in the book, which as you will learn, would prove to be a touchstone for my later writing.    

And I remember being drawn to the fiction of Jack London, then a very popular writer, though mostly forgotten now.  He wrote a lot about Alaska in books like The Call of the Wild, and kindled my desire to there, though I never did. I also read his autobiographical novel, Martin Eden, which my Uncle Bill might have given to me since he, like London, was an ardent socialist. Years later, I read London’s book, The Iron Heel, and could then see what a turgid author he was. Still, I eventually paid homage to him by visiting the last home where he had lived, in Glen Ellen, California. He died at the age of forty, a literary meteor himself before crashing to his death on earth.

In junior high school, I read the usual books assigned in those years, such as David Copperfield and Huckleberry Finn, but the most important event that occurred during those years took place when a friend of mine took me to his home. His father was a professor and his study was lined with books. I remember thinking, "I was I could have had a father like that."  I later wondered whether this was a kind of "seed experience" that was implanted in me then that led to my own life as professor.

I now live in a little house that is jam-packed with books. I always wanted to have my own library, a room with bookcases from floor to ceiling, like some of my professional friends, but I never have lived in such a house. Instead, I have bookcases all over my house, in every room except for my bathroom and kitchen: in my hallways and entry room, in my storage room, books tucked away in my dining room cabinet, etc.  I live surrounded by my books and my life in many ways has been defined and molded by them. 

I suppose I have probably read thousands of books during my long life, and still have hundreds of books in my house, though I have probably given away or lost more books than I now possess – many hundreds of them.

For example, when I left the University of Connecticut toward the end 1996 in order to move back to California, I had to leave at least half of my professional books and most of my fiction behind.  Over the years, I also lost many books when I lost my wives (I’ve had four) in messy divorces.  I’m ashamed to say that I’ve mourned the loss of those books more than my ex-wives. Even after moving back to California, because of lack of room for my books, I’ve had to give away hundreds of them.  Almost all my books on psychedelics (they are now in a special collection at Purdue University), UFOs, psychotherapy, mysticism, etc. Since I’ve always been interested in classical music, and have written some books about classical composers, I once had a very large collection of books on music, including more than sixty books on composers alone, and I still have quite a few books on music, but I had to give away all my books on composers to a musician friend of mine who is also a composer. It would be hyperbole to say that the loss of these books is like a wound in my side, but I do miss them; they were a part of me.

When I was still a teen-ager, I lived with my mother and stepfather in a home In the Oakland hills, above Mills College. During the summers once I had started college at Cal-Berkeley, I can remember sitting outside on the stairs below the porch reading very long books, such as The Authoritarian Personality, which was in vogue during those days. But what I also remember from that period was becoming acquainted with the work and life of Bertrand Russell, who was one of my literary heroes then.

I can remember reading his magisterial History of Western Philosophy on those stairs. And also his little, but influential, book, Why I Am Not a Christian, which I still have here.  In those days, I was very partial to books by atheists and agnostics, and I was keen on Russell, my kind of guy.  A bit later, I read his three-volume autobiography (I still have two of the three).

Around the same time at Cal (and later when I was a graduate student at the University of Minnesota), I started my long acquaintance with another atheist hero of mine named Sigmund Freud.  In those years – the mid-1950s – Freud and psychoanalysis were still important topics. Not so today, of course, when Freud is pretty much passé.  But I read many of his books and books about him, such as Ernest Jones’s three-volume hagiography of Freud, and a lot on other psychoanalytic theorists. Jung, too, after he split with Freud and went his own way.  As a young professor, I lectured on this subject as well.

And of course, as a graduate student in social psychology and as a young professor, I read scores of other books on psychology, anthropology (which was my minor in graduate school), sociology, philosophy, religion, etc. 

But before many years had passed, my reading life took a drastic turn away from all that. I had discovered psychedelics, which took my life and my reading into domains that were entirely new and thrilling to me.

And once I started my work on near-death experiences a few years later, I had found my professional raison-être. What had occurred earlier was only the prelude to my real life, which only began in my mid-thirties.

I don’t want to spend much time here talking about the sort of books I started to read then and for decades to follow.  Instead, I’ll just show you some of them.  Here is a snapshot of some of those books in one of the bookcases in my office:


On the first shelf are books that recount personal stories of NDEs.  The next three shelves contain books about NDEs (if you squint, you might be able make out titles of some of my own books on the second shelf).  The fifth shelf holds the non-fiction books I have recently read and the bottom shelf features the fiction that I’ve read over the past few months. 

It would be tedious to give even a brief account of the various categories of books I have read, so for the record (not that anyone is keeping score), I’ll just mention a few of my most important collections and how I came to have them.

When I went to the West Bank and Israel in 2008, and saw for myself what was going on there, I quickly became a passionate supporter of justice for Palestinians. After that visit, I acquired a whole slew on books on the subject of how Israel and its violent settlers have been relentlessly engaged in the effort to expel Palestinians and possess their lands.

Some years earlier, when I still identified as a Jew (because of Israel’s actions, I no longer do), I spent a couple of years reading many books on Jewish history, anti-Semitism and the Holocaust. I actually have no interest in and am actually repelled by Judaism itself (I am not religious), but I learned a great deal about how Jewish secular history and culture formed my personality.

I’ve read a great deal about other genocides besides the slaughter of Jews. Four books alone on the Armenian genocide; books about the violent Spanish conquest of the then "new world;" the European ravaging of indigenous Australians (I still remember my shock and horror when, as an undergraduate at Cal, I read how the Europeans hunted down and killed Tasmanians for sport). King Leopold of Belgium and his many-years-long rape of the Congo.  And, of course, books on slavery and the genocide of Native American people, including the Indians of my native state, California. Think Conrad’s Heart of Darkness.

In my guest bathroom, I have a little bookcase with all my books about animals, nature and climate change. Although I don’t live with animals, I love reading and learning about them, and have written a number of blogs about them.

I’m very drawn to the artistic and cultural life of 19th century France and have many books about that period and biographies of the artists who flourished then.

And of course, I have a wide variety of other books, on history, philosophy, religion, evolution, film, baseball,  etc., and hundreds of works of fiction about which more at the end of this blog.

But what I’d like to do to conclude this section is tell you a bit about books on subjects that may surprise you, as I have a kind of quizzical interest in subjects I know nothing about or have no talent for.  

Math mania

Although I have absolutely no head for mathematics, I am fascinated by those who do. So, I have quite a few books about mathematics, but particularly about mathematical wizards. I regard them as a species apart, something beyond mere Homo sapiens.  I love reading about their lives and the worlds they live in. And the mysteries of why the universe seems to be written in a code of mathematics which science attempts to solve. And questions such as whether math is something to be discovered or is a human invention.  I guess you could just say that I suffer from an incorrigible case of math envy.

The gay life

I like to joke that when it comes to sex, I am straighter than a ruler.  I’ve known a few gay guys in my life, but I’ve never had a homosexual encounter with any gay man.  I think the closest I came to that was when I was a kid sitting in a movie theater by myself when a man chose to sit next to me, put his hand on my knee and asked if I would like to go outside.  I soon excused myself and went to sit elsewhere; the man did not follow.

And yet, I have read quite a bit about the history of gay life, and of how much gays have suffered because of their sexual orientation and life style. But I think what I find so attractive about many gay men is their aesthetic tastes and talents. So many outstanding artists are or have been gay; that is well known. Anyway, I have read quite a few books by gay writers, both memoirs and fiction, including the marvelous diaries of the composer, Ned Rorem. And because I admire artists so much and wish I could have been one, I sometimes wonder if the reason I am not gay myself simply reflects a failure of imagination.

Overlooked women of genius

In recent years, I have spent quite a bit of time reading about exceptional women, particularly women who have accomplished outstanding work in the field of science, which was recognized during their lifetime when they were honored for their work, only, for the most part, to be forgotten by history. It irks me to learn how many such women failed to receive Nobel Prizes that they deserved because the men they worked with claimed credit for what these women actually discovered.  Although that wasn’t the case with Emilie Chatelet, who was certifiably a genius and did extremely important work in physics – she translated Newton’s Principia into French and her work influenced Einstein – these days she is mostly remembered as Voltaire’s mistress.

Fiction Favorites

The largest category of books I’ve read – by orders of magnitude – are works of fiction. Just too many to count and since this blog is already long enough, I will just put it and possibly you to sleep simply by mentioning some of my very favorite novels and novelists.

Of course, I’ve read the 19th century Russian masters – at least a few of their many books. Tolstoy, whom I don’t like, so he’s not actually favorite of mine, nor is Dostoevsky, though obviously a genius.  No, my favorite is actually Ivan Turgenev, the author of the classic book, Fathers and Sons. But why I’m so fond of Turgenev is because of his extraordinary love affair with a married woman, the incredibly talented singer, Pauline Viardot, with whom he lived for many years along with her husband, in an amicable ménage à trois.

Among the Victorians, my favorite, by far, is George Eliot. Of course, her big book and best known is Middlemarch, but my own personal favorite is her late novel, Daniel Deronda, which damaged her reputation. In the eyes of her contemporaries and fans, but not in mine.

I know everyone thinks that Dickens is the greatest English novelist of the 19th century, but not for me.  I’ve never cared that much for him, and if you were to read the book by Robert Gottlieb called Great Expectations: The Sons and Daughters of Charles Dickens about how he treated his ten children and mistreated his long-suffering wife, you might change your mind about him, too.

Moving along to our own time and country, my favorite American novelist, and a superb stylist, is John Updike many of whose books I’ve read along with countless articles and short stories. The most entertaining novelist and short story writer that I know is man with an unforgettable name, T. Coraghessan Boyle, whom I call TCBY.  I’ve read about ten of his novels, and enjoyed them all, and quite few of his short stories.  Some years ago, I heard him speak at a local bookstore.  I don’t remember what he said, only that he wore red socks. Check him out.

To me, the greatest contemporary American novelist whose writing I have extolled elsewhere is a man named Mark Helprin, who deserves to be better known than he is.  I’ve read most of his novels and am totally in awe of the beauty and power of his prose. For me personally, the greatest novel I have ever read is Helprin’s A Soldier of the Great War, which I regard as America’s War and Peace. I can’t recommend Helprin’s book strongly enough though I think I just did.

However, to conclude this section and Part I of this blog, I must tell you about the most wonderful novel I have ever read that I doubt many of you have even heard of. It’s called The Evolution of Bruno Littlemore, and its author is a man named Benjamin Hale.  The book tells the story of a character out of a Kakfaesque dark fantasy, except Hale’s tale is convulsively hilarious and, at the same time, deeply moving and poignant.  

Bruno is a literate chimp. Or at least he becomes literate. Not only literate, but he eventually becomes a Shakespearean actor. OK, I know this sounds ridiculous but, trust me, it’s not what you think. It’s beyond what you can imagine.  

You can get some idea of the book by reading a portion of a fan letter I wrote to Hale about a dozen years ago, shortly after finishing the book.  Here’s how it begins:

Dear Mr. Hale,

I’m 77 years old, a retired university professor (of psychology) and author, and have probably read roughly a gadzillion books. But in all this time, I have never, so far as I can recall, been moved to write to an author of any fiction. Until now.  

I came across Bruno quite by chance – no one had told me about it – at my local bookstore. It looked interesting, so I bought a copy. I began reading it at night, sitting in a warm bath, while recovering, though I never quite have, from a bad case of bronchitis.  I must have spent a month reading it, perhaps 20 pages or so a night. 

I was hooked from the start. I have read many wonderful, even remarkable, novels, but yours is, quite simply, the most extraordinary, glorious, unforgettable and enthralling novel I have read in ages, maybe ever. It is also side-splittingly funny. (I haven’t laughed so much while reading a novel since I encountered Kingsley AmisLucky Jim sometime during the Pleistocene.) Ever since I got into it, I have raved about it like a besotted madman to all of my friends and even to strangers.

I finished it last night, though I would have happily continued to read it even if it were of Tolstoyan length. Bruno may have fallen in love with Gwen, but I fell in love with him.  He is certainly one of the most memorable characters I have ever met and he has taught me so much about how a conscious animal might well perceive our human world.  And it was devastating – and devastatingly funny, too, as I have said. 

Of course, like everyone, I thought of Kafka, of Humbert Humbert (and there were so many Nabokovian touches, too, especially in Bruno’s vocabulary), of Augie March (which, oddly enough, I had started reading, only to put it aside when I started your book), but your own voice, or Bruno’s, is so distinctive, and your other characters so vividly drawn, especially the Falstaffian Leon Smoler, that your book has its own enchanting singularity. Nevertheless, I feel sure that the lubricious Bruno will often be compared to Humbert Humbert and that your book will come to be regarded, if it isn’t already, as the Lolita of our time.  And may it sell as much as Nabokov’s book has, too!  

Well, I could write pages extolling the treasures to be found in your book, but as an author myself, I know that e-mail is the enemy of work.  So please don’t bother to acknowledge this letter.  I just wanted you to know how much pleasure your book gave me and how much its savage Swiftean satire hit home, like a kick in the cajones.  

Benjamin Hale actually took the trouble to respond and wrote me a very sweet note of thanks.

Now, hunt out that book and read it for yourself.  I can assure you that you won’t be disappointed.

[To be continued on Thursday, May 1.]

April 13, 2025

NDE Follies


Dear Friends,

I was in a larkish mood the other night, so I decided to write a little parody about NDEs.  I hope you will enjoy it and maybe get a laugh or two from reading my frolicsome tale.  Here you go.

Title: “Death, Dying, and Other Inconveniences

I must say, dying is terribly inconvenient.

You could be having a perfectly ordinary Tuesday - walking the dog, microwaving leftover lasagna, planning your revenge on whoever scheduled a meeting at 7:30 a.m. - and then bam, your heart forgets its job and checks out early like a disgruntled employee. Suddenly, you’re staring at your body from the ceiling, wondering why you ever worried about cholesterol.

Now, before you panic and clutch your kale, let me assure you: this is not a tragic tale of doom. No, dear reader. This is a tale of curiosity, of mystery, and yes, of a surprising number of people reporting that the afterlife has really good lighting.

As someone who has spent a rather absurd amount of time collecting near-death experiences (NDEs), I can confirm two things:

1. People who "die" and come back often seem a lot happier than people who just try to find parking in downtown San Francisco.

2. Almost nobody sees a pearly gate. St. Peter must be very backed up.

You’d think dying would be terrifying. And yet, person after person comes back from the brink with the same general report: “It was beautiful. I didn’t want to come back. And also, I could see through walls.”

Apparently, when the brain shuts up, the soul gets chatty.

Many NDErs describe being greeted by a loving presence - a being of light, not to be confused with your dentist’s overhead lamp. Some describe a life review that’s less “Judgment Day” and more “Netflix binge of your greatest hits, including that time you stole a grape at the supermarket in 1994.”

And the kicker? They almost always report that the entire experience was infused with unconditional love. The kind of love that makes you forgive your cousin Steve for stealing your thunder at Grandma’s funeral by showing up in a sequined tuxedo.

Now, I’ve never had an NDE myself (though I once got lost in a Macy’s for three hours, which I believe is spiritually equivalent), but I’ve read hundreds of these stories. And every time, I walk away with the same conclusion: death, it seems, is a lot less scary than rush-hour traffic.


Well, first: try not to wait until you’re flatlining to realize that life is sacred and everyone deserves your compassion - even that guy who chews with his mouth open. Second: we’re all interconnected, even if we can’t agree on pineapple on pizza. And third: it might be wise to live every day as if it were part of your life review highlight reel.

Also, pro tip - if you find yourself floating above your body and someone in scrubs is yelling “Clear!”, maybe pause before following the tunnel of light. You’ve still got time to return that library book.

In all seriousness (or as close to it as I get), the growing body of NDE research continues to poke holes in the idea that consciousness dies with the brain. If anything, these accounts suggest that death might not be the end, but a rather awkward costume change.

And so, if you find yourself worrying about what comes next, remember this: You’ve survived middle school. You’ve survived holiday dinners. You’ve probably survived dial-up internet. You can survive this, too.

Besides, when your time comes, you just might find that the next world is brighter, kinder, and blissfully free of robocalls.

Actually, as some of you might now suspect, I didn’t write this at all. I just told ChatGPT to write a three-page blog in my style and characteristic humor. This is what it turned out. My daughter Kathryn said it sounded a lot like me. Heaven forfend! I would never saturate my blogs with so much corny humor; a sprinkling of wit is actually more my style, n’est-ce-pas?  

Anyway, this is the age we now live in where you can never tell whether you are getting a note from a bot or a human body.  You’ll have to guess who or what wrote this paragraph.



March 30, 2025

Claire Sylvia’s Afterlife Dreams


Dr. Ken Ring writes, "After posting my spoof of Dick Cheney’s heart transplant in my last blog, my webmaster, Kevin Williams, drew my attention to a story he had written up on his website that concerned a remarkable, indeed, an amazing, case of cellular memory following a heart/lung transplant. The satire I wrote about Dick Cheney was fictitious, but it was based on extensive research that shows in that in some cases, the recipients of such transplants begin to experience the tastes and habits of their donors. After reading Kevin’s article, I asked him if he would be kind enough to reprint his story as one of my blogs.  Kevin graciously acceded to my request, so what follows is his article.  I think you will find it as mind-bogging as I did.

One of the strangest cases in the history of dream research is described in the documentary, The Secret World of Dreams. It describes the amazing story of a woman named Claire Sylvia, a 47-year-old drama teacher from Boston and former professional dancer with several modern dance companies. In 1983, she was diagnosed as having primary pulmonary hypertension – an often fatal, rare progressive disease which causes blood vessels in the lungs to collapse. Her health slowly deteriorated until she was forced to give up her job and became home bound. She was also dependent on oxygen and could only move around in a wheelchair with great difficulty. A heart-lung transplant was her only hope and the risks involved were considerable.

Soon after the transplant, she began having strange and incredibly vivid dreams about a young man she didn’t recognize. Eventually, Sylvia realized that the young man in her dreams was the 18-year-old organ donor whose heart and lungs resided in her chest. Through her continuing dream contacts with her donor, she learned a lot about him including his name. She then decided to do some research to find out if this “heavenly” information was correct. Her research proved that it was indeed correct. Sylvia then met the young man’s grieving family and Sylvia shared with them the amazing story of her contact with him through her dreams. Claire Sylvia died in August of 2009 from a blood clot in her lung; 21 years after her heart-lung transplant. The following is the detailed account of her amazing story:

“My mother was basically dying,” says Amara, “She prepared herself for death and she was preparing me for her death. She labored to get up in the morning to go to the bathroom. Her breathing was labored and I was afraid every morning whether she would be alive or not.

Then Sylvia’s bizarre dreams began to unfold.

“I started to have a series of dreams. One dream was that I had the transplant and I had to drink four glasses of milk a day. At the time I questioned this, I said, ‘I wonder what this means? Where does this four glasses of milk come in at? I don’t understand what this means.’

“And there was no explanation so I just let it go. I lived each day with a thought and a prayer that I would live till the next day and that I would live to see my daughter graduate from high school which was about a year away.”

Finally, Sylvia’s prayers were answered.

“The phone rang and it was the transplant coordinator. She very calmly said, ‘We officially got permission to do heart and lung transplants and we have a donor for you today.’

“I was speechless. All I could say was, ‘Oh my God. Oh my God!'”

Within hours, Sylvia was rushed into surgery and after a delicate three-hour operation, she awoke.

“I knew that I would have to take an anti-rejection drug, cyclosporine. They injected a certain amount of this liquid into two little cups of milk. Then at night, I repeated this same process. I realized that these were the four cups of milk a day in my dream.

“At first I didn’t accept it, I kept saying, ‘I must have gotten this information from someplace.’

“I kept checking around and nobody told me. Then I thought, ‘This is bizarre. I don’t know why and I still don’t.'”

It was May of 1988, and Sylvia’s operation was Connecticut’s Yale-New Haven Hospital’s first successful heart-lung transplant on a female patient.

Five days later, journalists were invited into the hospital to interview Sylvia in the intensive care unit. During the press conference, a reporter asked her:

“Now that you’ve had this operation, what do you want right now more than anything?”

Sylvia replied: “To tell you the truth, right now I’d die for a beer.”

Sylvia was momentarily stunned by what she had just said, not so much because it was flippant, but because of the fact that she does not like beer and has never liked beer.

When Sylvia returned home, another sequence of unexplained occurrences began. Her taste in food changed dramatically. Five weeks after the operation, when she was allowed to drive for the first time, and she headed straight for Kentucky Fried Chicken – a fast food she had never previously enjoyed. She couldn’t explain this sudden craving. Nor could she explain many other apparent changes in her personality, such as, why she was starting to look at women the way a man might look at women, for example, or why her favorite colors are now green and blue rather than the hot shades of pink, red and gold she used to prefer. Other strange things occurred. Sylvia started eating green peppers, a vegetable she had formerly meticulously picked out of salads.

Around this time Sylvia had a strong, unexplainable desire to visit France. On her return, just when Sylvia thought her life couldn’t get any stranger – it did – in another mysterious dream.

“I’m in an open field and it’s very light. It’s daytime and I’m in a playful relationship with a young man whom I see clearly. He is tall, has sandy colored hair and his name is Tim L.

“I come back and say goodbye to him and as we approach each other, we kiss, and as we kiss, I feel as if I inhale him into me. It’s like taking this enormous breath. And I know that he will be with me together forever. But it also seemed that this man in my dreams, whom I knew as Tim, must be my donor.

“I was very curious to find out who my donor was because of all the things that were happening to me and because of the dreams I was having – and the feeling of living with his presence.”

Claire became convinced her donor was trying to communicate with her. She contacted the hospital but they informed her that donor records were confidential. When all hope seemed lost, her friend Fred Stern called to tell her of a message he received in his own dream.

“I had a clear image of a dream,” says Fred Stern, “that we had gone to the basement of the public library and had seen in the Portland newspaper a story on either the third or fourth page several days before her operation. A story about the boy who was killed and whom she had gotten her heart from.”

Claire and Stern made arrangements to meet at the local library.

“I met Fred at the public library and we looked at the papers the week preceding my transplant. Sure enough, the day before my transplant, as was in his dream, the obituary of a young man who was killed in a motorcycle accident. He was 18 years old. His name was Tim L. as it was in my dream. It felt like my heart stopped beating for a moment. I was standing up and I remember getting kind of weak all over. My knees went a little weak. It was a shock.”

According to Fred Stern: “It was almost like magic, like some sense of knowing. It is just wonderful to be a part of it – this unfolding.”

It turned out that Tim L. had died in a motorcycle accident shortly before Sylvia’s life saving surgery. She had received the organs of Tim Lamirande, 18, of Saco, Maine.

“I was shocked because now it became more real. Now I had all the information. I had the family’s name. I had details. This person really existed.”

Wanting to know more about her donor, Sylvia wrote to Tim’s family in Maine and made arrangements to meet them.

“I was very excited,” says Tim’s sister, Lee Ann, “and the whole family was very excited to meet Claire.”

Sylvia then met the Lamirande family. According to Fred Stein:

“She [Claire Sylvia] was very apprehensive because she didn’t know what she was going to meet, but she was warmly received, particularly by Tim’s sisters. They were very positive and said how much Claire’s atmosphere and behavior reminded them of their brother. What was important too was that we had come to the conclusion from her dreams that the donor must have been a hyperactive person, and the family confirmed this, saying that when he was little he had to be kept on a leash because otherwise he would run off, and at the time that he died he was holding down three jobs as well as attending college.”

Tim’s sister, Lee Ann, said:

“It was like meeting my brother all over again for the very first time – seeing him alive again. Claire was very warm towards us. She was loving. She was loving like Tim was. There was so much feeling that it was absolutely exhausting.”

Sylvia told the Lamirande family about her dream. Afterward, Tim’s sister replied: “My first reaction to Claire’s dream was one of disbelief. I really didn’t believe it until she just started describing things about my brother – like how he was tall and wiry. She described him almost to a T. She was getting the information from her dream. She described how Tim was loving and that he came to her and wanted to be a friend. I just kind of felt that, ‘Yeah, that’s what Tim would do.'”

Sylvia told them: “When I met the family, I was trying to corroborate some of the things that had been happening to me. I asked them if he happened to like green peppers and they said, ‘Oh, yes, he used to love green peppers. He’d fry them up with cabasa.’

“They told me his favorite food was chicken nuggets and that he had apparently just bought them before he died because they had to pull them out of his motorcycle jacket when they found him. When they told me that I said, ‘Oh my God!'”

The Lamirande’s also confirmed that Tim liked beer. And Sylvia’s burning desire to visit France was also explained. The Lamirandes were French Canadian. Tim’s favorite colors were also blue and green.

One night after visiting the family, Sylvia dreamt that 22 motorcycles were being revved up to be driven round town to commemorate some event. In the morning she realized it would have been Tim’s 22nd birthday. To celebrate, she asked a friend with a motorcycle to take her for a ride. It was, she said, “exhilarating.”

Tim’s sister Jackie remarked: “Why would she have a dream about her donor unless God was trying to tell her in a way who we were and trying to make it easier for her to get to us so she could see that there was good out of everything she went through.”

Sylvia stated: “All the images that have come to me since the transplant are, in and of themselves, having to do with this new part of me.”

Over the years, Sylvia kept in touch with Lamirande’s family. When Sylvia died in 2009, Joan Lamirande said, fighting back tears in a telephone interview from her home in Saco:

“She was a wonderful person. As long as she was living it was as if my son was still alive. Now that she is gone, I know that my son is gone.”

The implications of Sylvia inheriting personal characteristics of her donor are astounding. This is because it supports “cellular memory” which is the hypothesis that memories can be stored – not just in the brain – but in all the cells of the human body. One particular study published in a 2008 edition of Nature called Cellular Memory Hints at the Origins of Intelligence is suggestive of cellular memory; however, mainstream medical science does not acknowledge memory outside of the brain is possible. If it were possible, it would mean medical science would have to re-evaluate the accepted view that all memory is stored in the brain, much like data is stored on a computer’s hard drive. Nevertheless, research in Israel indicates that 34% of people who have undergone heart transplants have had some kind of experience of what is now known as "trait transfer."